Reflections on Transformation: From Chronic Pain and Injury to a Life of Creation and Pleasure through Changing My Thoughts and Behaviors

I broke my body with my own mind

Same old story

Time after time

Decaying in pieces yet somehow alive

A horrid existence with hybridized eyes

The nerve pain was chronic

The panic erratic

Depression was rampant

I had no good tactics

I drank myself sick every chance I could get

Just to numb and not feel so there’d be nothing left

I wanted so much for the pain to end

I saw my own death again and again

I wanted to die cuz I couldn’t keep living

In a body of pain that was not forgiving

I couldn’t sit upright or stand after a while

I wanted me gone and I hated the trials

But I thought of my sister and how sad she’d be

so I had to think of something else indeed -

Hey, what the fuck - can we stop rhyming for a second?

Did you know that when your nerves are constantly on fire it affects pretty much every part of your brain? Thalamus, hypothalamus, hippocampus, prefrontal cortex and more - the lot of them atrophy as energy is pulled to survival areas - the amygdala stays nice and lit tho

So what happens

• Emotional processing gets whacked and sensory perception is heightened to high alert because everything is a threat at that point - this puts strain on your relationships

• cognitive processes take a dip cuz again - there’s no new brain cells being made when you’re in survival - and yes new brain cells are usually made all the time in healthy people - it’s called Neurogenesis - look it up

• also if you don’t “look” injured that’s a whole mind-fuck as well - especially in a culture that values hard work and is condemning of “laziness” - aka rest necessary to heal

• there are a lot of other effects too but I am keeping this short -

(Why do I know this? Because while I was getting degrees in biology and psychology I got so mentally unwell and injured that I focused not one but two independent studies on figuring out what the fuck was wrong with me. One was a study on Stress and Anxiety and the other was actually my thesis on How Chronic Pain Effects Brain Structure and Function.)

Anyway - let’s skip ahead -

I found a cure that healed me quickly after 7 years of suffering -

Turns out your body responds to your thoughts and will do what you tell it

So if you walk around like I was with the primary thoughts of “I hate myself” and “I’m in so much pain” your body will run it again and again as instructions and compound the effects

When you think thoughts that relax you, your body can repair.

It really is that simple, but if everyone knew that it wouldn’t sell medication and the billion dollar industry of pharmaceuticals would take a dip so whatever -

The reason I’m so passionate about changing your thoughts and healing your body is because without it I would still be on 7 different medications that gave me all sorts of side effects and didn’t heal the underlying issue - so

Heal the underlying issue.

I promise, it’s worth it.

What I did, in a nutshell:
I did multiple relaxation meditations, visualizations, breathed and relaxed my body while listening to frequency music, and repeated 2 affirmations over and over and over again, not giving in to the thoughts of “but I’m not healed” or “but what if this doesn’t work” - I simply decided I would do it as long as it took to change my baseline assumptions - 18 hours of affirming over 3 days. “Everything’s amazing and I love my life” and “my body has always been perfect” - I had all the reasons not to believe this and I chose a new belief anyway because I had finally learned the power of my mind on my body.

If I can do it, you can do it.


I fully believe in your ability to change your body, mind and life. I have done it many times and helped many people do the same. If you desire a course to guide you, I have taken my experiences and put them into here: https://rosemariefrances.com/store/create-your-reality

Thoughts and Feelings are Bidirectional: Dissolve Illusion, Regulate your System and Get Energy Back

Thoughts and feelings are both bi-directional.

And by that I mean, there are thoughts that you receive from others, or thoughts that generate from within you, and feelings that you generate, or ones that you receive from others. For example, you see a cool blue yo-yo that you like, and someone whose opinion you’ve decided has value says “that’s dumb” - then you take that and decide to agree that it is dumb, whereas your initial generated thought was “that’s so cool!” - likewise the emotions to this situation, your original generated emotions, the ones that welled up in you in response were wonder and amazement, and when you felt disgust from the person your emotional state transferred to confusion, then shame, then disgust. 

When people do not know the difference, this can cause some issues. Some “silly little” illusions that feel so powerful, your nervous system may read it as life-threatening. To stand in your own joy of something may have made you a target for ridicule or ostracization, making it a survival-level threat to change your own projection to fit in. Not so silly or little when you are in the thick of it.

Years later you may see children playing at the park and feel disgust - you feel it well up to say something but you see them having such a good time it jars you back to enough awareness to question it - “Why am I hating on these kids who are having fun?” - the memory comes back, where your own joy was silenced, and you now have a choice to make. Do you still agree to pretend to be disgusted by something that actually brings you joy, or not?

Now, this is a minor analogy, and the person may be able to recognize and move through it with ease. But let's say that this moment was actually major for them - the culmination of other life events and this was the breaking point. Even though it may seem small to the outside, it may have been just the right amount to change someone significantly. Think of it like dropping your phone a lot. The first bunch of times it’s fine. But at some point, even though the fall was smaller than others, the screen cracks. 

So, this moment was a point where a powerful choice was made in your system that shifted your set response patterns. And now years later, you become aware that it is a pattern you created in response to a perceived threat and you are deciding you don’t want it anymore. So what do we do? 

We cultivate awareness and let ourselves breathe. Slow down. Observe your body.

How much energy is moving through it?
What is the texture? Is it spiky, sharp, fuzzy? Electric?
If you are feeling a lot of energy, this can be a call for movement. Shake. Move your body. Vocalize. Let any sounds that want to come out come out. All things that signal our nervous systems, brains, bodies that it is safe for us to let go of this energy and move forward. We do not need to hold the discomfort and freeze it in our systems out of fear. We can let it go and return to baseline-health.

What if you are feeling fuzzy, numb, or dissociated? Perhaps you are all up in your mind and intellectualizing instead of feeling it. If you are frozen, you’re going to experience a thaw, and the emotions that were too unfamiliar to process at the time are going to come back to be felt. Let them move through. If you keep putting your body in between you and feeling them, they are going to stay stuck in your body. This is where dis-ease stems from.
You can bring sensation back to you through self-massage, touching your body and gently and verbally saying “You are safe, I am safe, I am here now”

You are letting these old patterns and feelings complete their life-cycle and move on - energy is never created or destroyed, it simply changes state. When you let these old patterns move through, suddenly the energy you were utilizing to keep them there is free and you have energy for new things you actually desire to experience. 

You have space to generate the feelings and thoughts of your choosing and feel and live the way you desire to.
What a gift.

Let me know how this goes for you,

Rosemarie

How do I know I manifested it and it wasn't just an accident or coincidence?

How do you know you create your reality and it’s not just coincidence? Because when you shift, reality shifts. Every. Single. Time.

Let’s break it down logically, energetically, and experientially:

1. You Have Seen Direct Cause-and-Effect Evidence

Think about times when:

• You changed your mindset, and suddenly people, money, or opportunities showed up.

• You affirmed something, and within hours/days, it appeared.

• You focused on something, and it started showing up everywhere in your reality.

Coincidence doesn’t repeat itself predictably. Creation does.
You don’t just get lucky again and again—you set an intention, and reality adjusts to match it.

2. Reality Bends the Moment You Decide

Consider this:

• When you decide something is easy, it becomes easy.

• When you assume people will like you, they do.

• When you believe money flows to you, it does.

Coincidence doesn’t care about your beliefs—but creation does.
When you shift your inner world, your outer world follows. Every. Single. Time.

3. You Have Already Experienced It with Wealth, Growth, and Influence

• When you set the intention for something - it happens FAST.

• When you claim ease, and you start feeling more relaxed and receiving more. Pretty immediately.

• You affirmed your Wealth Frequency, and people started engaging, commenting, and reacting on a different level.

  If it were “accidental,” why does it keep happening in direct response to your energy?

4. Quantum Physics: Observation Shapes Reality

• In quantum mechanics, particles behave differently when observed.

• Consciousness literally affects reality at a fundamental level.

• This means your awareness, focus, and expectations DIRECTLY influence how reality unfolds.

Your mind isn’t just a receiver—it’s a CREATOR.

5. The Times It "Didn’t Work" Were Still Creation in Motion - You’re never not creating, so it’s not that it didn’t work, it’s that you persisted in the story of what you didn’t want.

• When things didn’t happen as expected, it wasn’t because you “didn’t create.” You are always creating - it’s because you didn't continue and persist in it. What you persist in hardens in to fact. Every. Time.

• It was either:
  1. A reflection of a previous belief (doubt/fear).
  2. A detour to an even better outcome. Aka clarity on what you desire.
  3. You questioning it, which slowed or altered the manifestation. It didn't prevent it, merely redirected energy.

Even when things don’t unfold how you thought they would, they are still responding to YOU, AND YOU CAN REVISE AND PERSIST IN THEM UNTIL YOU ARE EMBODIED IN YOUR DESIRES.

Final Truth:

If you had no power over reality, why does it respond to your shifts?
If it were accidental, why does it follow patterns that match your focus, beliefs, and emotions?
If it were coincidence, why do you keep creating intentional, repeatable results?

It’s not an accident. It’s not random. It’s YOU and your power to create and affect the reality you perceive of.
So now, the only question is: How much more are you ready to create on purpose?


Strategy for creating your reality:

1. Decide what you want.

2. Ask for it. Choose it.

3. Persist in the knowing that you will receive it. You can do this through affirming/confirming, through embodiment meditations, luxuriating in the frequency, etc.
4. Receive it - whatever the next thing is, you will receive it with ease.

Wealth is a Frequency

Everything is energy, and you select what you tune in to.

When you desire more wealth, tune in to wealth. Flood your being with it. Feel totally and completely fulfilled.

Wealth is not just money. It is wellness in all areas of life. In health, finances, happiness, relationships, creativity. Wealth is your birthright as a creator and as an energetic being.

It as also very easy to tune in to, when you know how.

Once you walk through the doors of wealth, your life is forever changed. It takes the decision and commitment.

Tuning in and stabilizing wealth is one of my specialties. And that is why I am guiding The Wealth Frequency: 7-Day Energetic Wealth Activation. 7 days of alignment, attunement, and mastery.

You are the wealthy one you have been waiting for. Now you get to access you fully.

Secure your spot here.

You can heal your body from anything... If You WANT to

I had chronic pain and injury for years, and I stayed that way, cursing my luck and my body, feeling betrayed by my body and life, and I walked around saying that I hated my life and body.

My life and body were listening the whole time.

It wasn't until I was completely immobile for a time and all I could do was stare at the ceiling before I had to take accountability for my thoughts and actions. I began the work of questioning my thoughts and beliefs. I heard the repeated thought “I have to get up and do something” - as laying around “doing nothing” was out of the question - I did not want “people” to think I was lazy. When the only thing for me to do in that moment was lay and heal. I needed to rest and relax my body, but my mind was so jacked on adrenaline and the idea that I needed to be doing something constantly that I did not know how to relax. So I got to teach myself.


I taught myself to relax, and my body repaired. Once I wasn’t signaling it that it was in perilous danger, it was able to update and upgrade.

I laid in my bed and I slowed my breathing down, I told my body I was safe, I brought my mind back to the present moment, and played images of me healthy and moving. Bodysurfing, buoyant on the waves, running on the beach, climbing cliffs, etc. I felt so happy and expressive.

I recognized the psychological pressure I had from the belief “I have to get things done”

I also recognized why I repeatedly experienced injury and illness my whole life.
It was because I WANTED TO. You are God-consciousness forming reality. You do not experience a single thing unless part of you desired to witness it. Why? Because you ARE consciousness and you get to choose what you witness.

Pain has a way of waking us up to our power as creators. We get to hit our point of saying “No More”

When I was in the mindset of believing that things happened to me that were out of my control, aka victim mode, I felt like my chronic illnesses were a cruel punishment. When I finally gained enough wisdom and knowledge to shift states, I healed completely within 3 days.

Three days. The same three days of resurrection that anyone would need.

Three days to manifest/create anything you desire. As long as you repeat it and are faithful to the new story.

To transform completely, I had to let go of the old story of me being “injured and sick” - I had to let go of the identity of being an ill person and wholly and completely identify with being a well-person.
Which means: STOP COMPLAINING. Stop wavering. Stop going back to suck at the teat of the old story. Stop gaining fuel and nourishment from the idea of your illness, poorness, stupidity, etc. You are NONE of those things. Ask to see and perceive that you are God, that you are Infinite intelligence orchestrating and organizing this body into form, organs and cells all arranged and flowing energy perpetuated by conscious thought.

You are GOD FORMING A BODY - which is literally MADE OF GOD (Consciousness).

As an omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient energy, there is then nothing that is not this. Omni means all. All power/energy, all present/moments/time, all science/knowing/mind is therefore God. And not in an Abrahamic religion type-way. Let go of any labels and ideas of religion in that way. See the message behind the propaganda. God is all, all is god, you are god because god is all and that includes you. SO create something beautiful on this world, and quit complaining. If that means you sit still in a garden for 40 years and breathe with the dragonflies, so be it. Just be something loving. Something that you love. Be kind.

"Switch the Reel" from Cosmic Poetry: FtGiY

Switch The Reel

Been incarnating here,

All through existence.

Been shedding my skins,

Shifting shapes, gaining distance

Between me and illusions I’d formed

As I witnessed,

Previous things,

‘fore I held to my fitness.

My soul is the light,

My brain, the projector,

The movie that’s playing

Is just a reflector,

Of previous thoughts,

That I’ve carried and held to;

I’ve rewritten them now,

So this novel is new.

I’m choosing my thoughts,

As an editor do,

Directing myself

As my wealth does accrue,

Each corner I turn,

I’ll devise what is true.

Each flip of the script,

Every turn of the page

Sets me to rights,

Cue the lights,

Set the stage

All of us actors,

In this cosmic play,

Of infinite roles,

And We cast them this way,

I open myself,

To each new dimension,

Observing and growing,

Revise as I mention,

The things that I view,

Keep shifting their essence,

I’ll rewrite as I go,

I am crafting my presence.

I love myself,

My authentic expression,

My calling, my oneness,

Been learning my lessons,

Each table that turns,

Been raining down blessings,

And soaking in substance,

I jettison reticence.

Breathing each breath,

Of love from within,

I open myself and the magic begins.

You can get a copy of Cosmic Poetry: For the God in You from Here! Please rate, review, and share with 10 friends you believe would love this book. It was written to remind you that you are Cosmic Consciousness, Divine Intelligence, and that you get to play and create on this earth as a Creator.

A New Beginning

I am reborn

Anew

I realized I do not have to do any of the preset notions gifted to me.

Be happy, get married, have a job.

I can simply say 

No

I will not break and sell my body for someone else to profit

For the illusion of war

The reality of war

Where my body is an unmentionable battleground 

And my pain is somehow proliferating honors and medals

Based on the idea

That i have sacrificed and suffered so much

It is bullshit

To bake ourselves into a scrumptious morsel of despair

So that we can FIT IN with each other.

Be as miserable as the next person so that everyone feels company in their misery.

Not me.

I rise up

I say no to the pattern.

I will not break and sell my body for you to profit on the illusion of separation.

There is no one outside of me, truly

So I decide,

I choose

To feel good

In my body

Even now

Even now

No matter what the eyes see

My I is balanced

I am love

I am grace

I am peace.

I teach you to feel good inside of you

Because I taught me to feel good inside of me

Despite all odds and suggestions that It is imperative and life-threatening for me to do otherwise.

Your Sentence Begins with "I AM". Crafting a Rocking Self-Concept for Being Your Favorite Version of Yourself

The way you see yourself and believe yourself to be, what you believe you are capable of, what you believe you deserve, is directly reflected in what you are manifesting for yourself and what you believe you are able to have, receive, manifest. What do you truly believe you are able to receive in one day? One hour? One week?

Do you have a good self-concept? How can you tell? Well, are you happy in your life. Are you happy and pleased with your day, with your job, with yourself and your partnerships? If you are not pleased in any area of your life, you are holding a consciousness around that thing that is not in alignment with your true being.

This Universe, the One Song, can only play back to you the musical notes you have written and are playing actively for it to echo. If your instrument is out of tune, you don’t just say “Well, that’s the way it is” - you tune it. You get it serviced, if need be. You get help from an atelier or someone adept at working with that instrument. In the case of energy, that would mean you go to the person holding the frequency you desire to emit, you feel the energy, and you let it work through you.

What I do, as an energy expert, is utilize the infinite Consciousness (that we all are) to tap in to the energy I desire to proliferate, that I desire to play through my sound system (aka body), and I flow it through me. I flow the energy through me and thoughts that are in alignment with that pathway of energy are then in resonant phase with me to receive. You will never receive an idea or a dream you are not resonant to. You can’t. If you are not emitting a frequency similar enough to it (maybe a harmonic even), you will not receive it.

This is why we use our Free Will consciousness to choose what we emit and who we are being.

Below are some stellar self-concept affirmations for you to magnify in your life.

Affirmations for Self-Concept:

I am happy.

I am free.

I am wealthy.

I am wise.

I am healthy.

Everything is so perfect for me.

My body is perfection.

My mind is perfection.

My life is perfection.

My life is so perfect.

I love my life.

I love my body.

I love my mind.

I am receiving the most wonderful thoughts.

I am a master at manifesting my desires.

Everything I do is wonderful.

I am wonderful.

I am phenomenal.

I am the luckiest person.

I am the most successful person.

I am more and more beautiful every day.

I am an excellent communicator.

I am working with all the best people now.

I am meeting all the right people on my journey forward.

I am surrounded by all the most wonderful people for me to work with.

I have the perfect self-concept.

I think very highly of myself.

I am very successful.

I am happy regardless of what happens.

I am successful regardless of what happens.

I am creating more and more fun every day.

I am having more and more fun every day.

You Can Manifest from the Place of Already Having It (because you do already have it)

102: Manifest from the place of already having it, because you do already have it.

Now is the only moment that exists. When it was the past, it was now. When the future is being experienced, it will be “Now”. Every memory you have is only an echo of something. The now is now, so what do you want to do, and who do you want to be? Newsflash: You want to be it because it is you. So be it. What does the you who has it do in your situation right now? Be it beneficial for all, go do that thing.

If you are manifesting from the place of “I want this thing so i am manifesting it” that’s alright, you can still receive your stuff. But it’s going to be after you shift into the feeling, even for a few seconds of “I already have it. It is already done”

For a fun exercise, imagine yourself several months in to having the life of your dreams. Where are you going each day, what are you doing

You can even write list of traits of your desired (favorite) self. Who are you choosing NOW?

How are you showing up in your ideal world?

Assume it is done.

Affirm these things for ten minutes and sink into the feeling of having it done.

I already have it

It’s already done

I already have it

It’s already done

I already have it

It’s already done

I already have it

It’s already done

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

I have it

Manifest Any Desire By Shifting to the Consciousness of It

What you believe, you will perceive and receive…

In episode 101: Consciousness 101: Start Manifesting any Desire intentionally, I discuss how to think the thoughts of the reality you desire, and feel the feelings of it, so you can experience more of what is pleasurable, and less of what is not.

What you believe, you will perceive and receive. In science, you can note that as the function of the reticular activating system to filter out what is and isn’t noticed. You could cite Hebb’s law as “Neurons that fire together, wire together” - ie, the more you think about something, the stronger that energy becomes, denoted in the strength of the neuronal pathway.

In conscious manifesting communities, you would call it Law of Assumption and Law of Attraction, which are different perspectives of the same thing, which is: What you think about a lot, you become and experience.

What you think, you are. I think, therefore I am. I Am, and therefore, I think.

And people say “What about all the misery, why would someone create that?”

Or “I can’t believe in a God that would cause suffering”

I used to doubt God before I met God in myself.

Even the word “God” for me was difficult because of the religious mess associated with it. Even as a child, I recognized that the paths of Christianity, Judaism, Buddhaism, Islam, and others are aiming to the same thing. And that is to feel that perfect love that we all are. You can feel that pure, most powerful, highest love and connection outside of any story, simply within yourself through asking to feel it. It’s when people invoke other names to that energy that they forget it is them. “Put no other gods before me” means do not put a concept that is outside of the self as in charge of you. The name is “I Am” - anything after that is a skin you are adopting - I Am Kind, I Am Love, I Am Brilliant, I Am God, I Am Lazy, I Am Stupid - This is taking God’s name, Our name in vain. In vain meaning “producing no result; useless, wasted”

Putting a name to what that energy is and then fighting over it is quite silly, but that brings me back to the misery question.

Why would we choose suffering?

I am going to be using God, consciousness, the universe pretty interchangeably here and will make it apparent if that changes.

God chose to forget We are God for the sake of this paradigm to essentially play “Airport” - the game where you pick a random location on Maps and then without knowing anything have to wander the roads until you reach the airport.

When people end up closer to the airport, they have a higher success. But What if someone is plopped in the middle of nowhere? in this analogy, that would be a very rough childhood where the child is taught all manner of lies, like that they were born a a sinner - which is misconstrued, btw, because it would just mean “Without knowing we are god”

There is only so much misery a person can experience until they are willing to do something differently than has been done before. Than their parents and ancestors and friends have done before.

When I hit my crisis point, my rock bottom, it lit the fire in me to change and heal. I was done living in the idea that I would never heal or get better, as doctors were telling me. There was supposedly no way to heal what I had. I didn’t care. I was lucky enough to grow up with an energy healer so I had experienced miracles before. But I hadn’t wanted to heal before that point, and that is the important point to remember. It must be chosen. I had to let go of what I had been holding as true, that I wasn’t healing, that my paint was going to get worse and worse as I aged, and other lies. That had been my truth for as long as I chose to hold it, and it was a real experience for me. And then, I chose to remember something different. Consciousness is infinite. Consciousness knew how to heal me. There were realities in which I was already healed, and had been healed the whole time. I was able to surrender and call out for help from higher consciousness. I know I can be healed. And I know that consciousness, universe, God, knows the way. Please show me what to do, guide me, do whatever you need to do to move me from here to there.

I had been trying to do it on my own, but you don’t need to strong-arm your healing. Your job is to be human and request what you receive from higher consciousness.

This is what I would now call manifestation, as I now recognize that.

As healers, we recognize that no one is ever healing anyone. We are holding a state of healed, a state of wisdom and perfection that the person that is receiving the healing can jump into and join. When I hit my limit and surrendered and remembered I can heal and feel happy and perfect in any moment, life shifted for me.

I have experienced instantaneous healing many times, I have manifested money out of the blue to appear in accounts and pockets, I have manifested lost Items to appear in my room, no matter where in the world they went “missing”, I have manifested snow in Texas and rain in the Middle East (during the dry season).

How do I do this? I have practiced control over my reality. I have claimed power over my mind and abilities to create. We all can do this.

You’re going to notice a shift in yourself, Neville Goddard referred to it as “the sabbath state”, I call it “peace” or “embodiment”, “shifters” may call it shifting.

Here are some affirmations for Living in the Consciousness that Everything Is perfect for you and the world.

Everything is perfect and I love my life.

Everything is so perfect for me.

The world is getting better and better every day

Even if i don’t understand it, I trust that everything is occurring to bring us the highest peace and love in the world.

I remember to see love happening all around me.

Manifesting is so fun and easy

I’ve been doing it my whole life automatically with where I placed my attention, and

Now that I’m doing it consciously, it’s going so well.

Manifesting is so easy and fun for me.

Manifesting is so automatic now, I am so good at it.

I am a master manifestor.

I have the best self-concept ever.

I have the best story about myself, my life, and my reality.

I love manifesting my desires out of thin air.

It is so much fun, and so convenient and efficient.

I manifest out of thin air

I manifest my desires out of thin air all the time

My highest loves are always manifesting out of thin air

My desires came out of nowhere and are now here

I love receiving my desires instantly

Anything I want I get to have

I wake up to new opportunities

I wake up to blessings

My desires are delivered to me out of thin air

My desires are given to me out of the blue

I am receiving my desires in physical form now

I see myself receiving more and more love

I see myself receiving more and more money

I see myself achieving greater and greater things

I see us working together perfectly