Reflections on Transformation: From Chronic Pain and Injury to a Life of Creation and Pleasure through Changing My Thoughts and Behaviors

I broke my body with my own mind

Same old story

Time after time

Decaying in pieces yet somehow alive

A horrid existence with hybridized eyes

The nerve pain was chronic

The panic erratic

Depression was rampant

I had no good tactics

I drank myself sick every chance I could get

Just to numb and not feel so there’s be nothing left

I wanted so much for the pain to end

I saw my own death again and again

I wanted to die cuz I couldn’t keep living

In a body of pain that was not forgiving

I couldn’t sit upright or stand after a while

I wanted me gone and I hated the trials

But I thought of my sister and how sad she’d be

so I had to think of something else indeed -

Hey, what the fuck - can we stop rhyming for a second?

Did you know that when your nerves are constantly on fire it affects pretty much every part of your brain? Thalamus, hypothalamus, hippocampus, prefrontal cortex and more - the lot of them atrophy as energy is pulled to survival areas - the amygdala stays nice and lit tho

So what happens

  • Emotional processing gets whacked and sensory perception is heightened to high alert because everything is a threat at that point - this puts strain on your relationships

  • cognitive processes take a dip cuz again - there’s no new brain cells being made when you’re in survival - and yes new brain cells are usually made all the time in healthy people - it’s called Neurogenesis - look it up

  • also if you don’t “look” injured that’s a whole mind-fuck as well - especially in a culture that values hard work and is condemning of “laziness” - aka rest necessary to heal

  • there are a lot of other effects too but I am keeping this short -

(Why do I know this? Because while I was getting degrees in biology and psychology I got so mentally unwell and injured that I focused not one but two independent studies on figuring out what the fuck was wrong with me. One was a study on Stress and Anxiety and the other was actually my thesis on How Chronic Pain Effects Brain Structure and Function.)

Anyway - let’s skip ahead -

I found a cure that healed me quickly after 7 years of suffering -

Turns out your body responds to your thoughts and will do what you tell it

So if you walk around like I was with the primary thoughts of “I hate myself” and “I’m in so much pain” your body will run it again and again as instructions and compound the effects

When you think thoughts that relax you, your body can repair.

It really is that simple, but if everyone knew that it wouldn’t sell medication and the billion dollar industry of pharmaceuticals would take a dip so whatever -

The reason I’m so passionate about changing your thoughts and healing your body is because without it I would still be on 7 different medications that gave me all sorts of side effects and didn’t heal the underlying issue - so

Heal the underlying issue.

I promise, it’s worth it.

What I did, in a nutshell:
I did multiple relaxation meditations, visualizations, breathed and relaxed my body while listening to frequency music, and repeated 2 affirmations over and over and over again, not giving in to the thoughts of “but I’m not healed” or “but what if this doesn’t work” - I simply decided I would do it as long as it took to change my baseline assumptions - 18 hours of affirming over 3 days. “Everything’s amazing and I love my life” and “my body has always been perfect” - I had all the reasons not to believe this and I chose a new belief anyway because I had finally learned the power of my mind on my body.

If I can do it, you can do it.


I fully believe in your ability to change your body, mind and life. I have done it many times and helped many people do the same. If you desire a course to guide you, I have taken my experiences and put them into here: https://rosemariefrances.com/store/create-your-reality